Lazy Habits

Let me tell you something. I am really really lazy. That thing makes me uncomfortable. I want to analyze my habits and find out why I am lazy.

First, I have to look at myself as I am, to be changed. I have to look without any judgment, without any suppression, and reach a goal. I have to just look at myself.

First, I am not a hard worker. I am just an ordinary human being. There is a habit that I caught. Most mornings, I just open my computer and go on with it. Wherever my mindstream takes me. I just follow what my brain told me to do. It is generally, the news, social media, YouTube videos, TV series, etc. When I have work to be done I go to the store and do the work, but at home, I am just as Oblomov.

While searching on the internet I also find some good stuff to inject my brain, but I have told myself after watching this series or reading that tweet I will come back and read or study that useful skill. Guess what, it never happened. I will never come back to the bookmarks. It has gone to the black hole.

I just want to know, why I am doing this. Why I am making this habit every day. Why I am not breaking it? Why do I want to improve and why do I care about news or someone's comments about that news etc. Why do I spend my energy and time on these kinds of useless activities?

I think the brain wants to constantly chatter. By reading/watching someone's comments and prejudices about news, places, or people, that chatter continues. I am addicted to that chatter. It relaxes the brain and makes it lazy. Because there is no need for work for the brain. It just repeats and eats what has been given to it. Not create just eat it. It suddenly makes the brain dull.

I have to see that fact. After that, I can use productive programs that hard-working people use daily.